No More

It's over. O&G posting is over.

No more having to worry about new admissions after 12 midnight. It felt really awful to find out that I had to cover a new admission in a rush the next morning before the round started.

No more having to wake up early at 6am after a night with inadequate sleep to face a long day ahead.

No more having to face the frustration of organizing and re-organizing my history to ensure that it was concise and I had everything important included.

No more palpitations and uneasiness when I witnessed my colleague being grilled during presentation and I was up next, worrying about the same fate.

No more frustrations of being grilled after I thought I had done everything possible to avoid mistakes. How delusional I am.

No more frustrations of not getting to present what I had extensively prepared. I spent a lot of time organizing the history and thought that "yo I'm gonna nail it man", but then the next day what they want was a quick summary. A quickie. Zzz. Coulda used those preparation time to study or sleep.

No more mundane routine of covering post-SVD cases or IOL cases. I need variety man. Sometimes bed covering took away the time for me to visit other ward in order to see different cases.

Do I hate it? No. It was a good training. I am the kinda person who needs to be pushed and pressured.

Do I want to go over this again? Big NO! I think 2-week is enough. I don't want to have my life expectancy shortened further from the inadequate sleep and the constant worry, on top of my pre-existing worries about other stuff in my life. =.=

Phew!